About

 

I feel like Steve Zissou sometimes. Other times I wish my life was like the movie Groundhog Day so I could go back and get it all right…

If I had to say what kind of animal I am, it would be a Bear-Dog(with a pinch of cactus). My favorite colors are green, orange, and blue…and sometimes yellow.

People often sum me up as being really “nice”. They don’t understand that this is the act of a warrior.

 

I am always assumed to be younger than I am.

I want to live to be 100 years.

I don’t watch much t.v., but I do watch football. Go Jets!

(nothing against TV tho…I love spending a sick day absorbing a MASH marathon, or Quantum Leap, LOST, Deadwood…but it’s far and few between where I get obsessed enough on any shows)

I plant large gardens in the spring and summer, but never really have enough vegetables to eat all at once. My herb gardens on the other hand, are bountiful. In the winter I have so many plants in my bedroom that it feels like being inside Jumanji house. I think gardening is a lot like how prayer is supposed to be…

I am busy, being, born…

Here’s a quick snap shot of my life recently:

I recent took a huge plummet of faith and quit my soul sucking real estate office manager job and have gone into business for myself as a freelance web developer/seo/copywriting, etc.
So far, despite the slow crawl back to financial well being, it has been the best choice I’ve ever allowed myself to make. I gave up a world of chameleon personalities in the real estate business, and find myself for the first time in my life getting paid to use and expand my creative talents, all of which never truly found a home in any previous office/corporate/business work environments…for me personally, the difference in how I was experiencing life is like night and day. A lot of things getting a lot better…I might just finally be “over the hump” and for once, I kinda see where I want to go…

Going for walks but calling them perambulations, counting calories, producing an experimental internet radio show, writing music, pondering which neurotransmitters I want to manipulate, trying to form a band, helping friends move across several states (both geographically and mentally speaking), taking hot baths with pounds of epsolm salt, talking to my dog about some shit some asshole said to me today, trying to organize artistic collectives, foraging for wild edible mushrooms, gardening, tweeting nature pictures, cooking yumptuous meals, saving money up so I can move to some new amazing place out there somewhere…maybe Asheville, NC…but who knows. I always have an escape reality plan in my back pocket it seems…

I wonder about 2012 now and then… But rather than be a helpless worry wort I’ve taught myself basic survival skills. So If the tidal wave doesn’t swallow me up, I’ll be rubbing sticks to make fire and eating tasty insects that I roast on a stick while the rest of you enjoy 5D reality. My motto is 2013: I will survive! (please lol with me about this)

…oh yeah, I have a collection of cacti that I also talk to.

…and I am just starting to grow salad greens and tomatoes, inside, hydroponic style. Yes, officers, I said tomatoes and salad greens. I love my aerogarden!

Oh yeah, I am also a legally ordained Dudist Priest.

http://cllct.com/release/theafterbirthofcool
http://cllct.com/release/sentientsounddemosep  

Those are two “albums/demos” I made, the first instrumental stuff along the lines of Four Tet, Caribou, and The Books. The second one is shorter, has vocals, and sounds a bit like The Microphones, Neutral Milk Hotel, and Pavement. Feel free to listen, download and share any of my music. I’d love to hear your thoughts on it if you do!

http://www.catfishrivers.com

(my website with a bunch of music, sketches, collages, pictures…)

Being myself and then messing up being myself when I am trying too hard to be myself. Does that makes sense? If so, please come help me figure it out how to relax about it all…

I’m also really good at Being creative and encouraging others to do so with me. I am probably the best though at making people laugh. I have a good mind for words, puns, and bizarre pairings of ideas. I am a goodcollagist. I have a green thumb.

That I am shaped like a bear, or that I am smiling too much, or that I am talking too much, or laughing too loud.

(I’m practicing talking less and breathing more…)

(a) Stranger in a Strange Land is my all time favorite book (the unabridged version!!!), The Illuminatus! Trilogy, PIHKAL,TIHKAL, The Tibetan Book of the Dead, anything PKD, Electric Koolaid Acid Test, the whole Don Juan series by Carlos Castenada, anything by Charles De lint, The Mysts of Avelon, the I-Ching, Tom Robbins, House of Leaves, wildlife identification guides, psychedelic literature in general, the sports page…

(b) The Big Lebowski, Rushmore, The Life Aquatic, Citizen Kane, Zardoz, Tron, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind,The Science of Sleep, Spirited Away, I love documentaries of almost any kind, The Lord of the Rings Trilogy, Jacob’s Ladder,Pi, Fight Club, cheesy movies, Primer, F is for Fake, The Mighty Boosh, Mr. show, Kids in the Hall.

(c) Neutral Milk Hotel, Pavement, Neil Young, Brian Eno, Elvis Costello, Tortoise, The Books, My Bloody Valentine, Can, Cassette Boy, Negativland, old folk music (think Crumb soundtrack or Oh Brother Where Art Thou? soundtrack type stuff), John Fahey, WFMU radio, Joanna Newsom, King Crimson, Mile Davis, Sun Ra, Firesign Theatre, Deerhunter, Deerhoof, Deermonkey (lol this one’s a fake I just wanted another deer band in there so i had 3 lol–want to start the band Deermonkey with me?) and lots lots more…

(d) Addicted to pizza…mexican, chinese, thai, soup, breads…anything really. I love to try to cook new dishes all the time. I have also tried out the raw food diet for a stretch of time and would definitely do it again. I hate guilt based thoughts, but I can’t help feeling guilt sometimes when I think of all of the living things that are made into my food. I’m recently finding myself often sorta torn about my spiritual responsibilities of my food choices…the good thing about the raw food diet that keeps making me want to go back to it, is that everything you eat is fruits or veggies, is a by product of the living thing, and not the living thing itself…despite all this in my head, I still find myself craving and enjoying just about anything. One day there will be fat free, zero calorie, karma free food options. Until then, god forgive me, but all these things with faces sure are tasty…

1) awe 2) music 3) my dog Dingo 4) my family 5) my acoustic guitar 6) entheogens and my sense of creative-spirituality (these are one thing so I am not cheating!)

WordPress, Hiking the Appalachian Trail, food (see above lol), the people I love, music, pot or anything similar enough to make do when it’s dry, art, psychedelics, entheogens and shamanic practices, electronic music production, mushroom identification (I’m not making this up I swear), living in a cabin in the woods that I can’t park a car next to (but maybe still has satellite internet and maybe even a hot tub lol), making collages, my dog, and 2012.

Buzzed making music, hanging out, driving somewhere, taking a hot bath, seeing a show, looking at stars/ufos, or just sitting around listening to the radio and wondering what everyone else is doing…I like the whole going out to see a band thing a lot, and enjoy certain group outings to a dumpy bar, or random adventures, but I also am happy to stay home and mess around on guitar until the sun comes up and not realize that so much time has passed…

Sometimes I feel like I am living on a deserted island…

You are a creative, or you want to tell me about a dream you had, or you want to go hiking (with or without dogs), or if you just want to make a new friend, or mostly because after reading all the above non sense, your gut is telling you to.